...What a beginning this year has had. One I dont think that I will ever forget. Well on the eve of this new year I was to leave with some friends to go to the desert, to be what would have been one of the best times of my life. Yet Has fate would intervein I injuryed my ankle...pretty bad actually. I cant help think that maybe it saved me in another way though. I lke what if I went and something worst happened to me. But Im okay minus the ankle thing. I cant live life on a what if.....whats the point? So 2009 has just started not what or where I thought I would be honestly....everyone makes these resolutions to abide by. Things that will make their year just that much better, but I think that they are just more rules to control us in some form or another. Ha! The only thing I can promise to do in life is breathe in and out everyday. I swear that until my dying day. All I can wonder is what could this year hold for me? what lessons will it teach me? .....cant wait to see....the sunrise each day for the next 365 days and if im dying I dont wanna know. And dont wake me cause Im dreamn and I believe in the rest of my life cause im freefalln. I hope that all the people that I have meet and befriended this year so far stay in my life cause so far everyone has been pretty bad ass..no lie. ugh My head is killng me...help. So My heart has tough has it is...has its weaknesses. And I think I might let someone in if they want too. But @ the risk of getting hurt im waiting becasue I wanna know more before I do. Honestly when I met him I didnt think it would turn out the way it has..kinda funny. Right now Im just gonna enjoy it and have fun, I havent been open to even think about letting anyone into my heart. There is just something about him that draws me in, like a black hole. heee heee the song im listening to rite now makes me think of him....kinda naughty. (pony-Far) Okay not that anyone needed to know that but read my intro above and tell me if I care. Fuck...oh One thing that WILL happen this year will be that Im moving out for sure!!!! By may, cause fuck this shit i cant do it anymore here. I wanna start this life on my own Im dying. This bird is ready to take flight and rock out!! New Job, New Home, New Life....these times are changing and for once I welcome the change. Hello 2009...you suck so far, try not to fuck it up okay?! Ha Ha well Let the whirl winds throw you in sweet blistful dreams Good nite <3>
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