UnKnowning Tomorrow

Hi.....I find my self slipping.
Not sure what is next around the corner.
Im getting itching with life....like Im wrapped in a wool sweater on a hot day. I love my life...I do
but really I want andventure. My best friend want me to get my passport, and It sounds like a good idea to be honest. I want out! Or Maybe it is because of the book Im reading, Into the Wild. It is the story about Chris McCandless and his adventure in traveling that ultimately cause his demise, I dont think he cared that the one thing he loved costed him everything. I dont know...maybe it is just something I dont understand. I find my self looking deeper in my mind these days, and Im trying to figure out who is it that I want to be. Life no one can tell me the meaning so there for I figure I'll make my own. Let water come...........Waves come one by one.......
Im sitting here quietly on the inside.
On my chair in the empty room.
waiting, for the next chapter in my life to begin.
Until that moment of paint spatters againist the canvas of life and I burst into the freefall Im looking for. When the lighten in my dream crashes into reality and I find myself complete and whole once more.
That dream now haunts my mind at night with curioused. I want to know it's meaning but I think it is one of thoses things that are left to be discovered has time drifts on. It is something that I must discover for my self and search for. I think that dream with the lightening and that one person and the barking dog and the people that surround me are telling something to look for if I just open my eyes. I cant sleep....so much flows through my mind @ night.

Lighten Crashes............

thee angel closes her eyes, the confusion that was hers now belong to the baby down the hall......

Life goes by way to fast, its too short to be angry, or live so unhappy.
there are things that I wish I had done so far in my life but I dont regret anything In my life cause you can never go back. And if you ask me right now if im happy ......Im on top of the world and I feel like nothing can every bring me down.
Even with my itchy travelness and wanting to find what I dont know....Im still pretty happy all in all. lol the only thing getting me right now is finding what music to play right now, nothing ease me to sleep. lol why can I never sleep.

Peace Love Life
Kerrie

Across the Universe

Across the Universe came out today....and I had to get it. Nothing has moved me more then these songs. While I find the movie to be a great artistic vision, the music is what speaks to me. More now then ever I have felt like breaking the chains of society and escaping. Iam not a hamster, Life is not a wheel. I want to know what it would be like to live where people accept people and help one another. The right thing to do......what in the hell is the right thing to do? you grow up, graduate, go to college, get a degree, marriage, kids, death. What esle is there???? I want to live and see. See the world around me. Sunny skys. Blue water. Green trees. Life is adventure and I dont know if I want to stay here in Califorina anymore. Ive grown up here, but since that is all I know.........In may more doors will open for me. It will be the last obstacle for me. And Now has well....I find that Im missing love. That one person you wake up and knowing that they exist makes the world much brighter. I dont know. I have been the one holding myself back from everything really. But I know when I meet someone, if it gonna go somewhere or not. When I first saw him, I was driving and I said he is probably going to his girls house, he'd never give me a second glance. But has fate would have it....he some how worked at the place I got hired and we ended up together.....for two years. It was werid how it all came together.....strange in deed. So I guess when I get that feeling again, all know....it will be something on somelevel. so we'll have to wait and see.....
fuck
prefection is miserble
let go
dream
stars and skys
until tomorrows end