Strange...I cant find the words to make anyone understand how it is that I feel. There is so much I have in my heart, but how to express it. I have come find that you cant assume you know something or someone, because no one can ever truly know another.
Ilearned dont write ever anyone off in life, cause they just might suprise you. This weekend I finally admitted to myself what I want in life right now, Scary cause I never thought I could. I figured it would figure its self out before I could say it. I think Im ready.......if your wondering what it is that Im talking about....keep wondering ...lol.
.....I need a cause, purpose to define, an exploration of something new.
What?
I dont know
Monday, March 23, 2009
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
A piece of My Heart
ahhh intricate world how your balance is so unique.
you know I never write about what I do on a particular night, well because I write more to tell what my heart says then my head.
But to night I believe is the first time I have felt heart break in quite some time.....
Sigh....I feel something for him and while maybe it isnt meant to be and I know this, it hurts. Strong has I may be my heart wants what it wants.
My heart wants to feel.
I have become this girl, the really me, has shown through. I love her, alot of people lover her. It is me. each step in my life has taken me some where new, showing me more about the life Im supposed to live. Yet Im so different from everyone esle that I just want people to see that, and if they can they well they cant.....I cant make them. My heart will go on.
*sigh* What can I do? Life is what it is and we cant win every battle.
Moving on....although recently I have learned that people are well just fucked up....ha ha it has it purpose in life. So I have met an amazing girl through a another friend who wasnt a friend after all. Finally I have a group of people in my liife that feel so solid and real. I trust her more then life its self. She gets me.....like I couldnt even describe. I welcome her in to my life, i give her my undying loalty. My girls new and old are my girls and have since proven time and time again that no matter what we got eachoother to depend on. The girl mafia. lol We dont cause trouble, we just protect each other. and I love you girls for that now and forever.
love
K
XOXOX
you know I never write about what I do on a particular night, well because I write more to tell what my heart says then my head.
But to night I believe is the first time I have felt heart break in quite some time.....
Sigh....I feel something for him and while maybe it isnt meant to be and I know this, it hurts. Strong has I may be my heart wants what it wants.
My heart wants to feel.
I have become this girl, the really me, has shown through. I love her, alot of people lover her. It is me. each step in my life has taken me some where new, showing me more about the life Im supposed to live. Yet Im so different from everyone esle that I just want people to see that, and if they can they well they cant.....I cant make them. My heart will go on.
*sigh* What can I do? Life is what it is and we cant win every battle.
Moving on....although recently I have learned that people are well just fucked up....ha ha it has it purpose in life. So I have met an amazing girl through a another friend who wasnt a friend after all. Finally I have a group of people in my liife that feel so solid and real. I trust her more then life its self. She gets me.....like I couldnt even describe. I welcome her in to my life, i give her my undying loalty. My girls new and old are my girls and have since proven time and time again that no matter what we got eachoother to depend on. The girl mafia. lol We dont cause trouble, we just protect each other. and I love you girls for that now and forever.
love
K
XOXOX
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